I've been doing some meditating and praying lately. Erin asked me to go with her to a service on Chrismas Eve and she would go to a service at my church on Christmas, so we could spend the holidays togeher. Well, her family now decided to go to her grandmoher's, which is great, doesn't hurt me, but I guess the deal is now void, since she can't make my service. I was really close getting her to go to one of my church services. I think she would like it, and if we get married, one of my major concerns is the difference in religions. She goes to a Methodist church, and I go to the Church of Christ. We are both kinda lost in our religions some, and I know she would hate to leave her friends, but I can't leave my church either. It has always been one thing I have sincerely believed in and has never really let me down. I do not have a problem with anyone, and I do not see any fault in the doctrine. Most of my friends would be shocked if they saw me as a more of a religious person. I never really talked about it much. Here is the site of the church I go to. It needs updated pretty bad, and I think I'm going to become the new admin of the site starting next spring. Its a pretty small congregation (somewhere between 15-25 per service, less on Wednesdays), and I have gone there all my life. Heck, it was the first place I went to after I was born in the hospital, my mom has told me. I will probably talk some more about my church some other time, but back to the main topic before I went off track, I wish Erin could try it, but I know how hard it would be for her to consider another church while she goes to hers (I actually have an article on this, but i would make her mad).
So amongst the finals, Aaron, bad dreams, Erin, trust issues, and the church thing, I've just went insane, and I went from being happy, to something entirely different. I'm glad I have this thing to dump my thoughts in a semi-logical order. If I would have told anyone how I felt last night, it would have been nasty....I just needed some sleep. Heck, this isn't even completely describing my thoughts, but I am on a time constraint, and I really don't feel like talking about them again. It would be too much of a redundancy on my part. On here and with peoples reading it.
I just pray that I get out of this. Its not that I am going it alone, but its hard to go through it, no matter who is with you.
Maybe this is all just stress.
I wish everyone best wishes for the week.