Allen (allengator86) wrote,



Two reasons. One, my life is b-o-r-i-n-g, and I simply am running short on time. This will be the case the next week and a half as my schooling is winding down for the semester. I am trying to finish my Linear work today, and hopefully my digital work on Wednesday. So for the next few days, bear with me, as I am also going to be at work more than I wish. If you want something interesting to read while I am away, read Erin's xanga, or Ashley's xanga, as they are having WAY more free time due to the weather....well, Ashley at least. I know I do this song and dance every semester, but I am seriously trying to keep my GPA up.

I am also not feeling like myself the past few days. I just don't know what I want anymore. Sometimes I wish for things to be a certain way, or I think I need something badly, and other times I feel like I don't need them at all. Completely confused? Don't worry. I wrote that so I only understand. There is just too much going on right now and it seems like too many people are expecting too much from me. Like work. They expect me to catch everyone up, to cover for people, and sometimes, I can't do that, but I have to more and more as the holiday season nears. At school, there is almost too much work to turn in. It kinda sucks, but that's expected. Then there are other things, like keeping up with my family, church, friends....its all too much right now. Right now, I just want to prioritize things. First, church. Second, school. Third, work. Fourth, sleep. Fifth, family. Sixth, friends. Seventh, everything else. So if I am not too responsice to you when we talk or something on here, please don't assume anythings wrong, its just that I have things that need to be done now. Yeah, I really have nothing to talk about unless you are in one of my classes right now. I might just have to say no to you at work if I am bogged down with demands. I may just not be able to talk with you a day or two, but it is not your fault, its just that time of year. This is why I am afraid to get close to anyone right now. I just can not be there all the time like people deserve. I honestly can not handle anything but my close group of friends for the near future. I am not saying I do not have feelings or do not want something more than friendship right now, not at all, just I do not have time.

I'm pretty sure I've said too much, but I am not mad or frusterated or anything. I am actually quite happy (minus the cold air, brrrrrr). I just need to get this off my chest right now, so I can regret it in the future, because when I type my mind on here, I usually upset someone that I care about, and I am not trying to do that. I am simply explaining why I am just not acting like myself. Maybe after the spring.....or next fall..........maybe.........

Oh yeah, hopefully getting a Wii soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just no time to play it right now (T.T).

TTFN peeps.

The Allengator

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