I saw so many people at work tonight, it wasn't even funny. There was this one guy and man, I swear I could not remember his face. He was all buddy buddy with me and asking me if I liked work, because I used to hate it or something. Then he started gossip about 'ol MHS and....well, I had no idea who he was. Honest! I have no idea who he was. If you're reading this, I apologize, dude.
Erin WAS in the store, but she overlooked me, naturally. I guess she's already mentally left me for school. :( Lol, just kidding sweetheart. I love ya!
Ok, now for the meat and potatoes. I saw my best friend Amanda tonight. I haven't seen her in ages, I swear. I really missed her over the course of the past two years. I know I usually don't get sappy on here, but I have felt like she's been more of a sister to ne. We caught up with schooling and whatnot, then she mentioned Erin leaving. She told me what Erin said, which was accurate, and I could see her look in my eyes and...she knew how I felt, by looking into mine. That's part of the special bond we have. We can tell what the other is feeling. I backed up Erin's claim and told her that its hard, but I'm used to things like this happening to me. I wasn't trying to feel sorry for myself or anything, and she's known me for a long time. I told her how I get something good in my life, and then I feel like I'm tested, and I usually fail, but I told her as God as my witness, I will pass this trial, and be happy for good. We talked about futures and she told me she would email me, and I am hoping and crossing my fingers on this one, because I miss her a ton. We said our goodbyes, and I stood there a moment and reflected on the ol days. Sigh.
Later, I remembered something I needed to ask her, and I saw her again (ironically, the liquor aisle, lol). I asked her if she heard about Aaron going to Iraq, and she said she didn't know, and once again, we did the eye contact connection. She was afraid for him, and was initially shocked. She muttered that the war has finally rung home to her. I gave her a shortened speech about Aaron's wanting to go and serve that I gave on her. She added that prayers help. which I have never really seen the religious side to her much, and it was nice to hear. I could tell that she accepted the truth, comforted a tiny fraction, and was worried. She said she would make it a priority to talk to him before he goes. I'm so glad I told her. She more than deserved to know because she too has a special connection with Aaron. I could tell she was appreciative of me telling her this. MY eyes were getting watery. Her words just hit me and....I guess mine hit her, not in a negative way, but in an emotional way, if that makes sense. We exchanged goodbyes for the last time tonight.
Amanda, if you ever read this, I love you. You are one of the most imprtant people outside my family, that is in my life. I have missed you so, and I know I will most likely not see you again for a long time, soon, maybe never again. I still long for a talk. I still long for your hugs. I still want you to be a part of my life, as a good friend and sister. I hope I can fulfill my role in yours as well. I hope we can still talk years from now. Please feel free to use me as a brother and a sounding board anytime you need.
I hope everyone is fortunate enough to have someone impact you life like this. I will leave you with that thought.