Allen (allengator86) wrote,

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Probably Coming Soon - Social Anxiety and Depression Entries

Hey there, just thought I would preface the next few updates with this entry. I've had a few rough weeks recently and it has taken a toll on me both mentally and emotionally. I finally broke down (several times, in more ways than one) and talked to a doctor about it. I've had a feeling that I've been suffering from what people call depression for a few years now, but it has gotten really out of hand as of late. I've also experiencing a lot of anxiety, especially in social situations. So I'm getting some much needed help with these things, and I just feel like I need to document what I'm doing, what got me to this point, and what I plan on doing in the future.

I'm hoping to explain what has been going on in a way that can be both serious and humorous. I don't know what my motivation is. Maybe as a journal detailing my descent into super apathy. Perhaps as a way of explaining my behavior to others that may not understand. Possibly, a personal friend can read these, message me out of the blue, and offer help. Long shot, maybe some stranger on the Internet will read these and realize what they feel isn't abnormal, that there are people that struggle with these things in their own way, and try to find a way to feel better. It's a bit optimistic view for me, but I'm hoping that these entries will be a stepping stone to something positive.

I don't have a plan for how many of these there will be, how often I plan to post, or how long they will be, but I have one in the works as we speak, so stay tuned.
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