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Erin just called me and sounded upset. She asked me to meet her at the church. She wants to take herself, and really didn't sat "I love you" when she hung up.

She's upset.

It hurts me so much to hear her like this. When she doesn't tell me anything, I'm afraid. Could something have happened today that made her so upset to want her to see me? Did something happen to Aaron? Are there problems at home? Does she want to break up with me?

I am so afraid its related to the last one. So afraid. Why else would she want to take herself, meet me in person, and be upset? I know we've been talking about some really deep and emotional stuff lately, and I am praying so hard that it isn't a side affect of it. I am so scared of losing her.

I have not thought that enough. I am afraid of losing her. So afraid. What would I do without her? Where would I go? What would I do? What will become of me? I really hope it isn't that, because I would go through the greatest torture of my entire life, combined. She is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me on this earth. Maybe, I don't tell her that enough. She should know, but I should remind her. Please, Lord. Don't take her away from me.

I hate it when she's cryptic, because it kills me. I am hurting so much, but I have to hide it from everyone. Her pain is my pain.

Her pain is my pain.

The Allengator