Allen (allengator86) wrote,

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Why am I so Rude?

I just have this feeling that I come off to people as rude. You know, my sister has told me this several times, but I usually think these are little fits so she can feel superior to me. Her way of feeling more important to me. Anyways, I just think that maybe I am actually rude. Take today for example. I have gotten along with this guy that works in the back. The other day he bought some cheese, and I asked him why he got it wrapped up and discounted. He said we did not carry it. So, me being myself (I Know no one better), I just kinda joking around with him, saying he was lying about the cheese saying we actually did have some in stock, but he just wanted cheap stuffs. Anyways, he knew I was just kidding around, honest. He came up to me today, I just said hey, and he said he wasn't in the mood to talk with me today. I asked him whats wrong, and he told me that I irked him, because I "called him a liar" in front of the customers. I asked him if he knew I was joking, and he said he knew I was, because its me. He said he wasn't so sure about the customers, because they might think he was actually a liar. I said that people shouldve figured out I was only kidding around. He said he wasn't so sure. I quickly apologized to him, and told him to just tell me to shut up next time. He said something after that, but after three attempts, I couldn't figure out what he was saying. Anyways, do people really see me that way? I mean yeah I can be sarcastic, and snarky, but am I rude. I mean he didn't say rude, but I think it was implied. I asked him if there was anything I could do to make it up and he said no. I mean this is similar to an incident years ago which I do not want to get into detail for now, but I thought I learned my lesson. Yeah, people like my mom and certain girlfriends think so, but I wonder. I really don't mean to come off like this to other people, really. know I've done this song and dance before, but I just want everyone to know (ok, maybe exception to certain people) that if you're my friend, I may mess with you, but if I didn't, you'd better worry. I'm sorry if I offend anybody (again, exceptions) and I ask for your forgiveness. If you think I'm a bad person, well, I'm sorry, and I'll do anything to change it. I know I can't make everyone happy, but to my friends, I want to keep all of you. Should I stop being this sarcastic and be more calm and bland? I ask myself that a lot. I don't know. I'm starting to think that maybe I should. Sigh. Sometimes I hate life, but hey, life happens.

Or maybe that guy is just overly sensitive.

The Allengator
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