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Open Diary Archive (JazzyTrombone's Diar-er, Journal) - 2004 - Part 1
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Head for the hills, I'm back! - 2/6/2004




Hey howdy hey
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Ok, I know what you're thinking.  I am not dead.  I am just cleaning off the dust of my computer.....but hey, dont they all get dusty?  Ok, where was I.....oh.  In case you have just noticed, I started an entry earler, and I said I would TBC it.  Well, I am not really up for  writting a morbid entry down right now.  Its not good for my constitution.  (ok, I dont know if I used that word correctly or not.  I heard a nice old guy say that.)  I am back...at least for today.  Will it be another two, or three months before I write again?  I hope not.  I will try to restart my either weekly or every-other weekly posts on here, so cross you fingets and cross my hairs.  I'm really going to try.  If I don't get around to doing it as I like, I might just make this thing dormant for about, a few months...but i doubt it.....i hope i'm right.
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Anyways, on to the showm shall we?  Well, what have I not told you?  My life is pretty boring nowdays.  I mean I do stuff, but I've done it before, ya know?  So here is the news in brief.
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I just learned that my ex-girlfriend now has a new boyfriend and is happy.  I am happy for her and we talked through why we broke up in the first place.  We just decided that we did not give it a chance...probably my fault mostly, but she wants to take equal blame for it.  Sometimes I'm not sure about her.  What sucks about this is that shes found someone and I haven't.
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Trombone playing is going well.  I am reaching the end of my public entertainment, or at least take a looooong break after may.  The college I am going to does not have a band....if it did I would probably still play....maybe....not that I hate playing the trombone.  Sometimes its all I have, its just that I'd hate to risk my career on playing it....way too risky for me.  But untill then, it is my prized possesion.
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Graduation is nearing....maybe I should start worrying?  Nah, not quite yet....but it is only 3 months away....ouch.
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As for my websie, I'm going to call it quits for a while, when I have more time.  I might possibly pick it back up this summer, but I will try to keep it on the internet waves, or whatever its called.
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I just told one of my friends to read this rag on the net.  Hey Lydia, I hope youre enjoying the dysfunctional circus of my life, if you could call it a circus....or dysfunctional...or a life.  Anyways, shes my newest, uh thing?  I mean shes a friend, but she seems like she wants to talk to me.  Maybe someone wants to talk to me for once?  Anyways, Lydia, YOU ROCK!!!!
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Stock prices for possums have gone down.
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I know I keep making all of these previews of what I am going to do on here, but I hope soon I will be able to transfer two of the papers I've done for english so far on here.  I hope....Better make sure I get off my horse and do that.  So those might possibly come soon.
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No weird dreams to report of.
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The worse day of the year is coming up, so dont forget to forget that someone....even if its me, like always.....anyways, I guess i'll spend my time at work....sigh....
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And in girl news, nothing to report.  Nothing.  There is no news about that.  There was that one girl I liked for a while, but I really don't talk to her anymore, she's always busy.  Another girl I used to like is constanly flirting with this one guy that can throw tantrums like a baby.....drives me nuts, so I don't bother.  My best friend is my best friend, so shes out.  I already announced about my ex........I wish a girl would like me.....is that too much to ask for?  Maybe so.
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In school news.  The life is school-ish....thats all.
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Well, if you must excuse me, I have a friend to e mail, hopefully I will return in about a week or two and deliver an actual good entry, so untill then, audios.
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Your hero and mine
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hey i was searchin through the geographical search on od, and found ya randomly.i'm kris,i'm from st.louis,mo.we should talk some time, note me back!
catch ya lata! [Kris*] 2/17/2004 1:20:53 AM
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Hey you,
I've been reading some of your entries from the past few months. I have to say that you really to have a brillant way of thinking about things. Your a smart guy. and by the way, I still think about you from time to time, after all your my fav. 3rd cuz. [blueskysforever] 2/29/2004 8:56:02 PM
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This is totally Awexome - 3/25/2004




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Lets cut to the chase.  I am having a wonderful time, such a nice switch.  I now have...A GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!  She is totally awesome.  Shes cute, funny, smart.  She really loves me for who i really am.  She cares for me, listens to me, makes me feel good, plays the trombone (BIG PLUS) and shes just everything ive wanted in a girlfriend.  She actually has the story about us on her diary.  Its on fairerin21 if youre interested.  But i know she appreciates me and will never leave me.  Ive been on date with her, held hands, kissed her, she kisses back.....its beautiful.  we've even talked baout what our marriages should be like and even talked about what we want our families to be like.  We've cooled down now, after discussing stuff.  Man...I care about her so much.....love?  I bet it is, im just too dumb to figure it out.  I hope we can spend many happy days together.  We've almost been together for 3 weeks, go us!  But if youre reading this, I've meant all of it sweetie.  This girl....shes great....and no longer single, so no ideas guys :D.
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Now a switch of gears, schools good, works good, lifes good, and the spring break is great.  I am sleeping in everyday except for (technically, this is at 1 in the morning) today.  Going to Joplin to look at some stuff.  Well, I hope this will begin my update once a week or every other week, but dont hold your breath....heh
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Well, keep giving away the flamethrowers that shoot out chocolate hundred dollar bills.
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Thanks for that Jazzy, that meant alot to me. You are awesome too. I wish I could write like that. See you at Jazz practice Monday!!! [fairerin21] 3/25/2004 8:21:12 AM
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Hmmm I think that i need to be on the inside loop of this one al! Whats up? [blueskysforever] 3/25/2004 8:50:59 PM
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Man...those old people are right... - 3/29/2004




Well, first off, I cant believe I'm updating this thing so soon.  I just got a Glenn Miller cd set, and its awesome.  It has 40 songs on it and i'm so psyched about it.  I also saw an old movie starring the Dorsey brothers.  Tommy dorsey rocks (trombone player, case closed.)  Then I got this totally awexome (not a typo) big band set from my girlfriend, and I have just enjoyed it so much.  Thanks sweetie!
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Thats not what I really want to center this entry around though.  Just this last weekend, my girlfriend( that feels weird to say) went away for a couple of days, and I missed her, of course.  I mean I can last a while without hearing from her, that I can handle.  Its just that, well, I never realized how much I care for her while she was away.  I mean I do a lot.  That old saying "you dont apreciate something until its not there" is right.  after doing some major inner....um....soul interviewing (?) I finally came to a conclusion.  The thing I'm so afraid of and felt like I would never experiance, love, well, thats how I feel.  I know she feels that way, but I've been weary of that word, and I thank her for bearing with me.  She understands my trouble with that word.  I don't mean to say I am not ok with it, but I know one thing for sure.  Erin....I love you.  Nothing will take away that feeling right now.  I might not be able to express myself this way like that all the time, but now I am sure.  I am in love with you.  Erin....
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I'm getting all sentimental now...thats sad....oh well, if it's for a right cause.  Think good thoughts....oh yeah!  My birthday is in a couple days, Thursday to be exact.  April 1, so if I don't update this before then, happy birthday to me!!!!!  Well, I've caused enought damage for one entry, so I'll see ya'll later.
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Until then, I will be a starry-eyed
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Allen this is Erin's BFF Ashley you are so sweet to her and she talks about you all the time. She is the right girl for you and you guys look cute together. She Loves you a lot so don't ever break her heart OR ELSE j/k. :) [jesusfreak20] 4/9/2004 8:01:34 PM
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*This entry title was left intentionally blank* - 4/8/2004




Hows it going everybody?  Im just doing a quick check on here, and to let you know I'm still alive.  Not much to report on, sorry.  Thats all I really have to say.  Bye.
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hey my diary has a lot of poetry in it that i need comments on. so i guess take a look at it if youre interested, peace... [beatles hippie '74] 4/8/2004 11:36:52 PM
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A link to the past, a non literal entry - 4/11/2004




Ok, time for some linkies I visit on the net on a regular/ non-regular basis.  Here we go.
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www.homestarrunner.com - Awexone website.  It has the funniest cartoons on it.  First time there?  I suggest "Wheres the Cheat" and "The Strong Bad is in Jail Cartoon"
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www.marshfieldbands.com - The band website.  For my high school band.  That, of course, can not compare to my garage band "Electric Plastik Nee Pads".....
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www.bored.com - bored?  Go here.  Has many a great link.
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www.google.com - Need to search "The Electric Plastik Nee Pads"?  They will let you do that.
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www.geocities.com/allengator1986 - My website...I know I know.....I need to update it.....I will most likely during the summer.  Its in a current redo.
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www.otc.edu - This is where I'm going to college!
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www.dumb.com - Yay!!!!! A site for people who are not me!
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http://www.foxlink.net/~bobnbren/index.html - Need Realplayer to listen to the songs, but man...this site has so many.....TEPNP will be on here soon...YAY!!!
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www.rinkworks.com - Random websire with random stuff.
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www.nerdparadise.com - Thanks for the link Chad!!!!!  Well, are you brave enough to check this site out?
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Well, those are the ten links of this entry.  Well, now I have to go practice out heavy-metal-rap-folk-acapella-instrumental song "Silence Begins With An S, Stupid" for the band....I play the maracas.....maracaas.....maraccas....um....the shakers, and I must be on top of my game for the band "The Electric Plasik Nee Pads"  Until next time.....I still play the trombone.  No need to worry.
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Three BIG days, plus a previous one - 4/29/2004




Howdy there peoples of all ages, including friends, family, friends of family......
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Not a whole bunch has happened lately.  Well, Monday I went out to OTC.  I'm officially a student there for next semester and I signed up for "Electronic/Computer Repair" and with the dual credit ive taken, i can ease up my schedule in the end.  The awesome thing, its only on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  I hope stuff goes well.  Im glad, because itll give me free nights to spend with people and more work hours.  The more flexable I am, the better chance I'll start getting Sundays off.
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Tommorrow Im going to six flags for a science/math day, and we will be comducting experiments on the roller coasters.  Itll be fun.  I get to spend all morning up there and then i go back to school when its over, and then i head off for state.  Im going to the columbia mall and hang out with my friends, then hang out at the hotel all night.  Its going to be really awesome. 
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Saturday is state music festival.  Im going for a boys double quartet.  I hope we do well.  We sound decent last time, so Im hoping.....then we're going to an awesome restaurant called Shakespeare's pizza.  its the best ive ever had.  then the trip home will be fun.  There will be about 5 of us on one bus......heh heh heh.  Fun with a capital U.   I just found out that one of my best friends is going to six flags now....YAY for chad!!!!
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Sunday is the combined band concert, the last official full band concert i'll ever play at.  Itll be sad, and itll be fun.  Spending time with my girlfriend, and other people.  I'll miss it.  Just had my last band rehersal today.....its a little sad, but its also a rite of passage, ya know?  Well, after this and the alumni banquet, itll be it. 
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Well, thats all i really have for now.  i might have more later.  bye bye.
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Hey Allen,
Just a quick note to say hi. Sounds like we'll head out about 2pm, and get home about 9pm. Hope to be able to talk to you for a little while on IM. Thank you again for your support, and thank your family for putting up w/ the phone calls. Thanks again. Love you!!!!
Love, Erin Michelle [fairerin21] 5/3/2004 2:11:50 PM
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Just a quick note to say hi. HI!!!!!!!! [fairerin21] 5/12/2004 1:48:31 PM
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Eyes ben graditated; - 6/2/2004




Yeah, that semi colon was placed on purpose.  Hello all.
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First things first.  I'm alive.  My mother has been in the hospital because of pancreatitis and we just took her back home after being gone for over a week!  She is doing better though.  As for other news, I still feelthe love in the relationship I have with my GF right now.  Shes just…awesome.  Cant think of a better word because the only thing keeping me awake right now is a can of carbonated caffeine.  Anyway, on to the main event of the update.
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I just graduated from high school!!!!!!!  YAY!!!!!!!! GO CLASS OF 2004!!!!!!  Whew, it was a crazy night.  We had the graduation ceremony a week ago and it was themed “With a Little Help from My Friends”, based off the popular Beatles song.  Keeping that theme in mind, we had about 5 speeches altogether about friendship, and how we go on in life with friends.  I might elaborate this in a future entry.  I got my diploma and at the end we had the “great hat toss.”   ….I lost mine, but I got a replacement.  I hugged this guy who I’ve known for a long time.  He tries to act tough and full of himself, but I must admit, I’ve never seen him so emotional than I did at the ceremony.  He had tears in his eye.  I was amazed.  This guy whos tough and think hes all that….really crumbled.  Oh, I didn’t cry by the way.  Crying really has no affect on me.  I let out mine in other ways.  Again, another time to explain that.  We left for projrct graduation that night, which I will try to explain in the next entry.  It’s a whole other story.  But After that, I tried to find my friend Amanda, because she means a lot to me and I just wanted to hug her.  SHE was emotional TOO!!!!  Ive never seen her so…emotional over something involving me.  She doesn’t do that  a lot, for stuff I do.  It was a nice change knowing she actually cares about me.  Yes, I would’ve went to Erin, but she was out camping.  Then I found my Precalc buddies and we all hugged each other.  Then I found The band directors and thanked them for everything theyve done.  Really, I wouldn’t have been introduced to as much music, like marches and jazz, and if I wasn’t in jazz, no Erin, so I really owe a lot to music.  And I also found chad, who found out that day that he got accepted to a college and he’s only a junior in high school.  WAY TO GO BUDDY!!!!!  It was an awesome night.  But that’s not all.  My oldest rival, the guy I never really liked, he came to me, and it seems we have patched things up.  Maybe we did just because we only see each other about 2 times a year now, heh.  And I ran into my dear sweet math teacher who made my life hectic for the last couple of months….i mean it was until this year that she got on my nerves.  But since I was in the precalc/calc (or as I call it LD calc/calc) she gave me a book.  It was “Five People You Meet In Heaven” by Mitch Albom.  I guess she got it since it had the number five in it and there were five people in the class.  It was the nicest thing shes ever given me (well, that one A also…) and I read it.  I’ll share a little with you sometime.  Then I went to see my parents, and I left to go to project grad.  That, I will explain in the next entry.  For now, go to the next entry for the class song lyrics.
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ok...what is it with singing t.v. theme songs? ah the Wonder Years. good song anyway. [gummybear] 6/2/2004 2:30:38 AM
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MHS Class song of 2004 - 6/2/2004




I Bet by With a Little Help From My Friends - The Beatles
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What would you think if I sang out of tune Would you stand up and walk out on me Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song And I'll try not o sing out of key Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends What do I do when my love is away Does it worry you to be alone? How do I feel by the end of the day Are you sad because you're on your own No, I get by with a little help from my friends Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends Do you need anybody I need somebody to love Could it be anybody I want somebody to love Would you believe in a love at first sight Yes, I'm certain that it happens all the time What do you see when you turn out the light I can't tell you but I know it's mine Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends Do you need anybody I just need someone to love Could it be anybody I want somebody to love Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends Yes I get by with a little help from my friends With a little help from my friends
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And now a rude interuptive entry - 6/2/2004




I know I was going to talk about project graduation, but I'll do it later ("I'll do it tommorrow" is our class motto) and I found this  on my compy, so I thought I would share it with you.  Its the final presentation I did in high school.  It was for my english 4 class and we had to write about some song lyrics that we can apply to our year or future.  Well, this is just something I wrote up in case I didnt feel like winging it.  I just used it as some notes, so I didnt flat out present it, but this gets the jest of it.  Enjoy.
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Final Presentation
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I went through a lot of songs before I came across the one I wanted to talk about today.  I thought about different Beatle’s songs, some Queen, some Billy Joel, and also Paul Simon.  I thought about it and I thought I would do my presentation over the song “You Can Cal Me Al,” but after some more thought, I decided to change it up a little bit.  I’ve always thought the famous jazz band leader/vocalist Louie Armstrong had a very distinctive voice, and then I remembered a song that he sang that has usually helped me through hard times, and it is the song, “What a wonderful World.” 
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It’s no mistake in saying that some of us have been sheltered for most, if not our entire lives.  You might have already heard of the “horror” storied of the “real world” which we are about to enter.  I am not going to say that the real world is all peaches and cream, but I don’t believe it to be a rotten sock like some people say it is.  We will go through hard times.  There will be people who we may not like too much, or some who don’t like us.  We will probably experience death in both friends and family.  We might not be able to pay the rent on certain months with the landlords trying to force us out of our homes.  However, we should also take time to invest in the world around us.  There are, as Louie puts it, “Trees of green, red roses, skies of blue, clouds of white, the bright blessed day, the dark sacred night, many colors in the rainbow which match the faces of some people, and friends shaking hands.”  What this means is that even though our lives may become hectic and bad, it isn’t a bad idea to look around us, viewing nature and the kindness of humanity might put us in a good mood for a while.  We will get wrapped up in the world, but I hope that none of us lose sight in all of that around us, and finding the good in nearly everything we see. 
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I also think the song is humbling in a way.  We see all of this stuff, but we usually do not help it retain its beauty, or we may actually harm it.  We must also realize that we may be graduating, but it may not necessarily mean that we will be the wisest of the whole bunch.  We probably know more about technology and computers than most people 40 or 50 years ago, but I think we will be surprised to see how we will be at their age when they come up with more advanced and newer technologies.  That generation will in one way, be wiser than us.  “I hear babies cry, I watch them grow, they’ll learn much more than I’ll ever know, and I think to myself, what a wonderful world.”  If you think about it for a while, it’s a gigantic humbling thought.  We should be proud of what we have accomplished, and also hope for many more accomplishments in the future.
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The song is not meant just for pulling people out of a bad time, but also for people who are in a good mood.  I love pulling my cds out and listening to that song, and I think of what the words mean, and I get blown away if I think on it too much, and then I think to myself, what a wonderful world.  Thank you.
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What A Wonderful World - Louis Armstrong
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I see trees of green, red roses too I see them bloom for me and you And I think to myself, what a wonderful world I see skies of blue and clouds of white The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night And I think to myself, what a wonderful world The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky Are also on the faces of people going by I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?" They're really saying "I love you" I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow They'll learn much more than I'll ever know And I think to myself, what a wonderful world Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world Oh yeah
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Have a good day
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Project: Graduation, now with chaperones! - 6/2/2004



Welcome to me once again.
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As I told you, I was going to talk about project graduation.  Now you may be asking “What is project graduation you deranged trombone?”  I will answer that for you.  It is a party for graduating seniors.  It takes place at some facility, usually the Y in Springfield, and they set up different activities for us to do.  So, here we go with my story.
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After graduation, we had about an hour to get ready (get out of robes, get stuff, etc.) and then we left about 10:30 that night.  We arrived at the Y and they told us that we had control of the place.  They even gave us our own cameras and we took pictures.  Then they fed us candy bars, pizza, chips and soda.  I played ping pong and air hockey with my childhood friend Mark.  Then I played racquetball by myself for about an hour.  Then, that’s when the awesomeness started.  Sure, I could’ve played pool, shoot hoops, play on the inflatable bouncy tug of war thingie, but it was not good enough for me.  Not even the Frisbee sufficed for me.  I heard a sound…and that sound became an obsession.  I was going to do what everyone did not expect me to do.  Its something I have always strived for and never achieved.  And here I am, fulfilling the deed as if it was destiny.  I thought it was.  It is something only a true Allen would do.  Yes my friends, it was not the exercise bikes or running a track.  It was the most golden opportunity of all….KAREOKE!!!!!  Yes, I am a renowned kareokeist.  Everyone cheered me on.  No, I didn’t use my real name when they called me to sing.  I used my alias.  No, not The Trombone Emperor, or Jazzytrombone, but The Big A.  Yes, I sang my feet off that night.  I sang What a Wonderful World (see last entry, I did it in Louie’s voice too!), Backups on God Bless Texas (ok, more comedy relief on that one, I do not like country music) and Baby Got Back (backups only).  But my all time, number one all time hit of all time was awesome.  The manager (doesn’t manage anymore though) of the local Wal-Mart and basically all the chaperones loved it, and when we all met as a huge class, the mentioned me by name, saying it was the best act.  Only one song was enough to drive everyone crazy for me.  It’s the famous Johnny Cash song….”A Boy Named Sue.”   Yes, I sang that song in front of everyone, and I was a mega hit.  I am only available on Tuesdays and days I’m not busy with other special requests.  Well, after that they had prizes to give away, and I won a really awesome root beer float at our local A & W restaurant.  Then about 5:00 am we left back to Marshfield and we each got an envelope with neato stuff in it, like gas cards, coupons, and money!!!! (like $70)  And that was basically the whole night.  It was fun reminiscing with my friends and learning new stuff.  I hope everyone else had fun. 
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Well, Im going to go to sleep now.  Got a bit of nothing to do tomorrow.  Bye now.
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This is dedicated to, ah, you can finish it. - 6/7/2004




Howdy to all who appreciates a little-less-than-fine culture. I’ve decided to make an entry that has been a long time coming. I just needed some time to sort out my thoughts, so here goes. This is for all of you who like halfway normal sappy stuffs. For three months now, I have had the pleasure, no, honor of going out with one of the best girls I have ever known. We met back in September, and I remember one of my friends warning me about this really annoying girl I was going to see at jazz band. I didn’t think much of it, especially then because I felt I had to know someone before I judged them. If she would end up being annoying, then I’d label her as annoying. Well, we met for the first time and I didn’t know how to label her. She was quiet and seemed polite, so I deemed her as “acquaintance”. Well, we never got to talk much in the following weeks, but I felt I should try because she was after all my best friend’s girl friend. We then went on a trip to CMSU and we spent most of the day paling around and stuff. She wasn’t around my best friend much, so I didn’t know if they broke up or what. Anyways, that day she wanted to pretend to “flirt” with me, which I later found out was not pretend ;). After that day I labeled her as a “good friend”. We still talked a bit, then one day her ex boyfriend/still best friend asked me if I would consider going out with her or if I liked her or something. I can’t remember too well on that. I told him she has to ask me in person. Well, she didn’t quite do that. She sent him a note, which he tried to read to me before I went to work, but I told him to read it to me after I got off that night, being that I was strapped for time at that time. That night he read her note over the phone. I couldn’t believe my ears. A girl was actually interested in me? This wasn’t supposed to happen until after the apocalypse. Well, I went over to his house to read the note myself. It was word for word what he told me. She wanted to know my feelings for her. She gave me her phone number, which is ironic, because I asked my nest friend to give me her number at school that day before he got the note. Back to after the note. I didn’t know what to think. Sure, I got her number before I even knew she wrote the note, but I just wanted to talk to her more as a friend….maybe. Maybe I was wishing there was something more too. I’m not sure. I was still pretty screwed up back then. I called her that night and we really hit it off, and I knew the note was right. Those were her true feelings. I was an actual crush to someone. Something I always wanted. One thing was holding me back though. She seems a little too young, almost four years. I told her to let me think a while. If it wasn’t for her age, I would’ve had no trouble asking her out, but I had to think. What would my parents think? People at school? Many late night phone calls later I realized some things. 1) This girl was REALLY mature for her age. 2) She was definitely falling for me. No mean tricks or dares on her part. 3) I was definitely developing feelings for her, even if it were over time and I just realized it. 4) I had to ask her out before she got away. I knew I had to go for it. I reviewed my past track record of asking girls out. Failure after failure, with one past success, and that ended up being a failure on my end. I knew I had a good chance this time. So on the day we went to the Drury Jazz festival, we had some time alone outside. We sat around and talked, and we both knew it was coming. She even threatened me that she would do it herself, but I did it anyhow. Why was I nervous? It was just a girl who liked me, that’s all. After she accepted my offer to court her, we hugged for a long time. And that’s all of this exciting story I have for now. I will continue it later.
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I know you will read this Erin. I love you so much. Thank you for everything sweetie.
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Until next time.
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That is so sweet. See I have heard her side of the story but never your. You made her cry and almost me too. Now I know how you feel about her.


[jesusfreak20] 6/7/2004 11:36:52 AM
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I'm really glad that you didn't let my age get in the way. I wonder what life would be like without you.......it'd be horrible! I'm just so glad we're together. I love you too!!! Very much! I hope that we get to talk soon.
Love forever,
Erin Michelle [fairerin21] 6/7/2004 2:56:43 PM
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hey, drop me a line when you get the chance. Thanks
FairE [fairerin21] 6/15/2004 1:00:50 PM
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A good story I read off a cd cover - 6/15/2004




I read this off of the Trans-Siberian Orchestra cd "Beethoven's Last Night" and all rights are reserved to them on this story, I just wanted to share it, thats all.  So without furthur or do, here it is.  A small story I call:
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BEETHOVEN'S LAST NIGHT
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On a late night in the spring of 1827 the city of Vienna is experiencing the largest lightning storm in its long history. Within a large disheveled room, Ludwig Von Beethoven is slumped over his piano and on the piano sits the just completed manuscript for his Tenth Symphony. It is his final, and he is certain, his greatest work.From the shadows a beautiful spirit, Fate, and her deformed dwarf son, Twist, emerge to inform Beethoven that this is to be his last night on earth. They are accompanied by numerous spirits and ghosts from his past, and he finds their babbling unbearable. He begs them to leave, but Twist tells him that as shadows they only exist by the light that Beethoven's life has cast and that light is slowly dimming. With each successive crack of lightning the spirits all draw closer.
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At the stroke of midnight, Mephistopheles suddenly appears and informs Beethoven that he is there to collect the composer's soul. Beethoven, faced with eternal damnation, is terrified and claims that it cannot be his time, that he has yet to complete his Tenth Symphony. Mephistopheles looks at the manuscript and then, with seemingly uncharacteristic generosity, offers to give him as much additional time as he needs as long as he will tell him now what parts he plans to add or change. His bluff called, Beethoven is forced to admit that he would not change a single note.
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The Devil nods thoughtfully and then makes the composer another offer. If Beethoven will give him all his music, allowing Mephistopheles to wipe it from the memory of man, he will return his soul to him. Beethoven is overwhelmed by the situation. Fearing an eternity of damnation and torment he is desperate to reclaim his soul, but the thought of losing his music, his life's work, causes him to hesitate.
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Mephistopheles, sensing his confusion, offers to leave for one hour before returning for Beethoven's answer. As the devil is turning to leave Beethoven notices that the hands of the clock are moving faster than normal. When he points this out to Mephistopheles, the devil replies that the maestro should consider it a final favor because where Beethoven is going, they never turn at all.
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Crushed by the dilemma he finds himself in, Beethoven tries to recall the particular actions in his life that have led to his damnation. In anger, he confronts Fate for having dealt him such a cruel hand. Taken aback, she asks what he would have her change. Forced to review his life, he discovers that the removal of what he considers the most painful moments of his life would also remove the inspiration for what he considers his finest works. He also realizes that his music is who he is, the reason for his existence, and decides that he would rather suffer for eternity than have it destroyed. He cannot remove this music that he has seen bring so much joy to so many.
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When Mephistopheles returns to find his offer refused, he quickly replaces it with another. If Beethoven will only give him the un-released Tenth Symphony (which no one else has heard, so he reasons it will never be missed) he will return the maestro's soul. Beethoven agonizes once more and after conferring with the ghost of Mozart, again decides that he is unable to destroy his music.
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In a final desperate attempt to obtain the Tenth Symphony, Mephistopheles points out through a window to a child sleeping in the gutter. He tells the old man that he, Mephistopheles, owns this child's life and in great detail lists all the horrors and suffering that she will experience in her short existence. If Beethoven will release to him this final musical creation, then Mephistopheles will give up all claims on the child, irrevocably removing himself, all his evil and unhappiness from the child's life.
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Beethoven turns away from the sight of the little girl, determined to pronounce a firm and final no. But before the words can leave his mouth he finds himself once more looking towards the child. He desperately tries to convince himself that she means nothing to him. Besides, she is not his responsibility and even if he does save her there are millions more like her. This single life will make no difference while his symphony will bring joy to countless generations.
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Despite his best efforts he can not bring himself to leave the child to this evil and collapsing on the piano bench, he tells the devil that he has a deal.
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Mephistopheles dances with delight as he picks up the manuscript never noticing Twist who sneaks over and whispers in Ludwig's ear, "How do you know that Mephistopheles will keep his word?" Beethoven sits up and repeats the question aloud. Mephistopheles, never looking up from examining his prize, replies that Beethoven can draw up his own wording for a contract that they will write on the back of a page torn from a bible. Beethoven glances questioningly towards Fate who is still watching from the background. She nods her head for even the shadows know that a contract written on such sacred paper is unbreakable, even by the devil himself.
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Beethoven, totally exhausted, mutters his consent but is unable to write the words that will bring about the destruction of his beloved Tenth. Fate, seeing his dilemma, offers to write down the agreement for him and he hands the paper to her. As he stares out the window Fate writes,
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It is agreed upon this night, March 26, 1827, between the undersigned, that the music of the Tenth Symphony, composed by Ludwig von Beethoven, first born son of Johann and Maria von Beethoven, in the city of Bonn, shall henceforth be the property of Mephistopheles, Lord of Darkness and first fallen from the grace of God. It is also understood that it is his intention to remove any signs of this music from the memory of man for all eternity. In exchange for the destruction of the aforementioned music it is also agreed that Mephistopheles and all his minions will remove themselves from the life of the child presently sleeping in the gutter directly across from the window of this room. This removal of influence is to be commenced immediately upon signing and to be enforced for all eternity.
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_________________________Ludwig Von Beethoven                

_____________________Mephistopheles
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Mephistopheles reads the paper, signs it and pushes it in front of Beethoven. Without even looking at the document the composer signs the paper. Immediately, Mephistopheles reaches over the piano, seizes the Tenth's manuscript and thrusts it over a lit candle. It is engulfed in a wall of flames. But when the flames have died down the devil is stunned to find that not only does the manuscript still exist, but it is not even singed. Thrusting it back over the candle it is once again engulfed in flames only to emerge unscathed.
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Sensing that he has been tricked, he screams for an explanation but Beethoven's expression tells him that he is as shocked at the turn of events as the devil himself. As Mephistopheles is glancing once more at the manuscript he hears a giggling from the darkness. There he sees Twist who is poorly concealing his delight.
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"What are you laughing at you wretched troll?"
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"The composer's parents gave birth to a son prior to the maestro's birth. They named him Ludwig von Beethoven but he died within the year. The man before you is Ludwig Von Beethoven, second born of Johann & Maria. You have purchased the Tenth Symphony of Ludwig Von Beethoven, first born of Johann & Maria, if he ever writes one." Mephistopheles glares at Fate, who smiles back at him demurely. Then, throwing the music back at Beethoven, he screams in frustration and disappears in an explosion of smoke and flame.
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Beethoven is surprised by Mephistopheles' rapid departure and asks if he is not coming back to collect his soul. To which Fate replies that he never had any claim to his soul.
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"But Mephistopheles said..."
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"He is the devil," Fate replies, "He lies." And with those words a warm feeling of peace spreads throughout Beethoven's body and across his soul.
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When he asks Fate what is to happen next, she tells him that it is time for him to rest, for tonight he will dream a new dream within the gates of paradise. As the words weave their way into his soul, Beethoven lies down on the couch near his piano and begins a new dream.
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With the departure of his soul the storm begins to break and a stillness settles over the room as one by one the ghosts and shadows fade away. All seems at peace until the sudden re-appearance of Twist returning through a window. He gazes about the room, a look of mischievous delight spread across his face. Scampering over to the piano, he takes the manuscript for the Tenth Symphony and then climbing up a bookcase, carefully slips it behind a wall. Here it will remain hidden, the world blissfully unaware of its existence, until that one day in the future when it will be discovered and it will once more live again.
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JazzYTrOmbOne</P --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Allen- That is such a moving story!!! That is soooo cool!!!!! FairE [fairerin21] 6/15/2004 11:04:10 PM --------------------------------------------------------------------------- Passing thru..Yooooo. [TheSeductiveSphinx] 10/8/2004 11:33:41 PM ---------------------------------------------------------------------------