*Sees if anyone is looking at him*
*Looks at the year before's entry*
*Knocks himself in the head*
*Looks at the previous one*
Typically, my Christmas entries are long, drawn out, sapfests with some sort of warm fuzzy feeling left behind. Well, my friends, I think I will digress from tradition this year and just try being myself, which hasn't gone on too well on here.
*Looks at the past few previous entries and sighs*
Yeah, my personal entries have fallen on the wayside on here. I just haven't felt like spilling on things. Work is work. School isn't in session (but I made it out like a bandit with a B and an A for final grades. Huzzah!). Church is tomorrow, but it isn't one of those super duper special Christmassy ones. Nope. We are talking about Jehovah's Witnesses. Nice.
We exchanged gifts tonight at my house. I got a couple of dvd sets (Pushing Daisies, Eureka) and some shirts that I needed badly. I think the gifts were nice this year. I also got an epically awesome one from Loretta that is more personal. Let's just say I am almost an accomplished author now....heh. I really enjoyed it :).
We are having my aunt and, possibly, my cousin over tomorrow. It will be a nice treat since they sometimes can't make it.
Some loose ends in my life are slowly coming back together. For one, I am going to have some more free time this next semester with only one class, and I think I will put that time to better use. I really want to start making a nice website and presence here on the web. What I mean by that is that I want to start doing some long-term projects on here. One of them is this blog, but this is definately more personal. The blog has helped keep my HTML skills sharp. I also want to make more of a professional website. The problem is that I cannot think of a proper format or subject matter to go on. I mean, I can't just do a personal site. My tastes are just a little too much for professional companies. I'd hate to make a "My name is Allen, and this is my professional web resume" site either. I'd hate to sell myself on the Internet like that.
Wow, putting it that way makes me sound like a prostitute....AH! Sorry.
Other things include the "Mega Media Monday"s and, if it ever works out again, maybe, possibly, almost, not sure, return of a certain podcast that has mysteriously vanished into thin air. No promises, but me and my new cohort talked about the possibilities today, and I think it would be a good chance to show off my skills in overall electronic media. Huzzah!
Anyways...right, Christmas entry. Right.
Ok, I have to level with you. Honestly.....well, I hate to say it, but I just haven't felt much in the Christmas mood this year. Shocker. Before you start yelling at me, let me explain.
Every few years, I get unenthusiatic about Christmas. I mean don't get me wrong, I appreciate stuff, but every so often, I just don't feel anything. I don't know what happened, but nothign has felt right to do this year. I haven't watched any Christmas specials. I didn't listen to Christmas music much outside of the forced stuff at work. I didn't deocrate, dress up, or squeeled like a little kid at all. It happens. For no apparent reason, I just don't get excited every few years. Next year I could be all into the Christmas spirit. Who knows.
That being said, I am thankful that this paticular day, tomorrow, is being set aside for family. Do you know how many times we get to sit down, as a family, eat dinner, talk, and just do family things? Not very often at all. The last time I specifically remember us doing anything together was at my birthday last year, everyone going to eat out. Sad, I know. With my sister, my father, and I constantly working, at different shifts, we rarely are at a time we arre together, and if we are, we are doing chores, homework, or just out. There are some days I do not see my dad or sister. Literally. I get up after they leave, and get home after they go to sleep. Its sad if you think about it.
Than again, I guess thats growing up for you.
Snap. I went all semi-sappy on you again. Sorry.
Despite my constant claims of wanting a monkey for Christmas, it still has not came. This makes me a sad panda :(. Although Loretta came close, but a monkey on paper is not as epic as a monkey period.
Speaking of pandas, I think they are creeping up towards the top of my "epic animals" list. Panda power to the max!
Ok, you see, here is the thing. When I talk about Christmastime, I tend to get sappier, and when I remind myself to not get sappy, it becomes more random and non-Christmassy. Hmm.
I may have a solution, but you will have to wait until tomorrow to see it.