So yeah...do NOT ask me about work, anyone. You will get a scalding answer for the next few days. VERY scalding. The "I don't swear, but if I could..." type of scalding.
I am laying here, unable to physically move. I can stand, and I can lay perfectly flat, but I can not do anything involving bending or sitting down. I'm hoping a good night of rest will remedy that...if I can sleep through this stinking pain.
Ok, enough complaints. Now on to regrets! I wish I went to more places during the summer. I wish my schedule would allow me some time to visit with visiting friends. I wish Pluto was still a planet. I wish we had a 7-11 down here.
Now the good news!
And thats all the good news I have.
Don't you LOVE sarcasm?
Actually, that's not entirely truthful. I'm just in one of those moods tonight where I could care less about most things. I just care about family, friends, and spiritual things, but the pain in my body is an unpleasant reminder that I am to slave in the corporate world until I can't take it, so my spirit is a quite crestfallen.
I am honestly keeping my mind fairly blank as of late....well...more so than usual. I just decided that if I were to ignore all my problems, that they will just haunt me later when I have a better outlook in life. I'm not "sweeping under the rug", but am more "putting it off", because if I make that a part of my life, I just will not be as chipper as I am now. I don't have SERIOUS problem either, mind you. I just have the typical ones that a early 20-something has. How will I move out of the house? When will I be done with college? What will I do after college? What if its a mistake? What if I have to move, and its a mistake? When am I going to find my true love in life? When will I get that feeling I once had? When will I regain my zest for life? When will I get out of this perpetual rut I am in? Will I ever be able to control my anger enough? Will I be a good father? What will my funeral be like? Will there be many people there? Will it be standing room only, just my close family, or something inbetween? Will I ever be remotely famous? Will I keep blogging for the rest of my life? Will I be able to keep up with industry standards and changes in technology? Will I be ready to face my parent's death? Will I be able to take care of myself?
Sorry to bug you with all of these rhetorical questions. Several are about the future, which I try to spend little time on those, because those who obsess about the future belongs in politics. I clearly don't. Some are about the present. Those I juggle from time to time. Seriously, though. Those are just scratching the surface of the tip of the iceberg. With those kind of depressing/morbid variety, its no wonder why sometimes I just need a break from it all. I find that ignorance is truly bliss. What does that say about giddy people? Do they not know something I do? I am trying my hardest to not let these things bother me, and to simply make life as simple as possible. I have been trying real hard lately, but thereis always someone or something that throws a monkey wrench in it and makes me go back to the questions in my life.
I know some have answers, some will have answers in the future, and some will never be answered at all.
Hey, who doesn't have these problems too, right? I am just one in a world of billions. Everyone has these, and we are all in this together. I guess that is why friendships exist.
Anyways, I hope this is enough complaining/philosophy to fill you guys up for a while. I'm going to go watch some funny stuff on the 'Tubes. Have a nice weekend everyone!